16 December 2015

kurnia

Sejurus melepasi pintu penghadang itu, setitis demi setitis air mata merembes. Laju menuruni pipi. Sebak cukup menguasai rasa. Aku tercari-cari di mana dia yang baru kutemui lewat sembilan jam yang lalu. Kotak plastik segi empat lutsinar satu demi satu aku lepasi dengan hati yang runtun. Tiub berselirat yang menemani setiap kotak berisi tersebut menambah rasa cemas dan sebak di dalam hatiku.

"Abang... Dia mana...?"

Sang suami senyum. Tangannya setia menolak kerusi roda sambil meramas lembut bahuku.

"Sabar ummi...Nuu, tak jauh dah."

Aku buru-buru bangkit daripada kerusi roda sebaik sahaja sang suami menghentikan tolakannya. Perlahan-lahan aku berjalan ke satu kotak terbuka. Alhamdulillah, tiada tiub. Laju sahaja air mataku merembes. Aku sentuh dia berhati-hati. Aku tatap rupanya. Aku amati setiap inci fizikalnya. Indah... Tiada kata untuk menggambarkan seluruh rasa yang bertakung dalam jiwaku kala ini. Sang suami menggenggam erat tanganku. Diseka pipiku lembut. Sempat sekilas itu kukalih mataku memandangnya. Ada air jernih di bucu sepasang mata itu. Berserta senyuman...

0605.
9 Disember 2015.
Terima kasih Ya Tuhan di atas kurnia.
=')

08 June 2015

vacation.

my vacations are always be more to nature than shopping thing.
they make me sit down and thinking how adventure someone's life could be.
worse than you experienced.
worse than you ever thought.


21 February 2015

i'm walking on broken glass. (part III)


i acted like i don't give a... i sang pop as i walked into my room. slowly i shut the door and locked myself in this little box. the walls threw back the echoes of Mak's voice. she doesn't like my new boyfriend. in fact, she didn't like my previous boyfriend too. and the boy before him. for they aren't in the same field just like me. you know what...a teacher. this is the fourth time maybe more...she told me to find her a teacher-son-in-law. i don't blame her either. she's already went through hell.



there's a fine line between trauma and learned from lesson.



18 February 2015

birth date. (part 2)

the best part was not the surprise belated birthday party but the heart to heart between Sol, Li, Rose and me in Sol's mobile on our way home. 80km/h was 180km/h.. how time flies...

darjah

 
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