19 December 2017


dad left for a slut
mom is being unfair
siblings abuse me


technically im broke

23 September 2017


Her jokes got funnier
Her hands got warmer
Her smiles got wider
Her pillow got drier
Her steps got slower
Her feeling got lighter
Her cries got quieter
Her eyes got brighter
In her hallucination she is a pampered daughter.

But her lips got bluer
Her feet got colder
Her body got skinnier
Her palms got sweatier
Her pulse got faster
Her heart got heavier
Her thoughts got louder
Her writings got darker
In her room she holds a cutter.

22 April 2017


Jangan kau sangka orang tak menangis depan orang lain pasal hati dia keras. Sebaliknya dia lembut hati. Lembut hati sampai akhirnya hati dia hancur luluh. Nak rasa terluka apanya...da hancur. 

03 April 2017

robbi sallimna

i was raised knowing no love but i love people hard. i havent really found a place that i can call home but im always the home to the people i love. i am the broken one who needs to be saved but i am the one who is busy mending pieces of the lives of others. of all days full of fears. of all nights filled with tears. dizzy all days muzzy all nights. helpless all days sleepless all nights. even exhausting busy on days fail to beat the loudness of the thought at nights. 

Allah i have only You Allah.......

12 January 2017

goodbye Paan

still remember the Perisa F i told you long ago?  well.. one of them has gone last year. see im not joking when i say people come and go. they do come into my life and out of sudden go out of my life. he is not dead. life just took him away. he lives in a better place now. it was the hardest 7th ramadhan thats what i can tell you. you know what the hardest part is? i laughed when he answered coughing is stylish like a wise old man when i asked him why is he always coughing. i should have known that was the sign.


stay away

remember you told me to stay away from negative people on the very first day of this year?  well it is you that ive decided to stay away. 

you said communication is vital in a relationship but everytime we communicate you make me feel like i cannot talk to you. you make me feel guilty. you make me feel like everything is my fault. you never admit to your wrongs. you said you hate egoist. must i say that it is yourself that you hate? look. im exhausted. 

remember you said you dont chase people? neither do i. 

01 January 2017

twenty seventeen

it has been a long time. a long long time. i have no idea why im back here i just do. twenty seventeen huh? almost two years. okay not two years but almost. one and a half years. quite a long time. not so long but yeah long. pretty long time. i dont know what im talking. two years.. sometimes i get warmer sometimes colder. i went through so many ups and downs but most of the time i was upside down. to tell the whole truth, it still is. people come and people go and no i cant blame them for it. they come and go just like me and i come and go just like the others.

in fact we dont belong to people forever.

indeed we belong to Allah.