22 December 2014

birth date.

one day, Atikah came around my place. she gave me a box. a small box with a smiley on top of that. she was about to knock my head as i asked her what was that for. hahaa.. i don't really mind about how would i celebrate my own birthday. honestly i never. plus i'm not really good at numbers which makes it's quite hard for me to remember everyday-date. but it's a bliss you know...when somebody remember every good thing about you...not because you remind them to...but because they truly care. that can be considered as the reason why i never put my date of birth on my facebook profile.
to see who do really remember me.

17 December 2014

the deadliest word.

silence is the deadliest word when it came from the one you care the most.

28 October 2014

hari ini hari senyum

Hati berbunga...

kekwa
daisy
ros
tulip.

:)

24 October 2014

tahun baharu. buku baharu.


Kekasih,
pimpin aku sepanjang aku di atas
sambut aku tatkala aku jatuh

Kekasih,
aku mahu hidup satu kali lagi. 

03 October 2014

words. (part III)




i remember when i was in the teacher college, people used to call me brave, rough, rude, and many more middle name that jump into this category. the so-rightly-said person.
mean.


my friend, i need you to give me some more time. to improve my language. to brush up my social skills. my knowledge. my beauty of self-control. if you just hate me for what i was and i am today, you are no better than you said i am.
mean.


20 September 2014

dua kuasa satu.


hidup ini ibarat roda. ada naik turun. kadang di atas kadang di bawah. aku yakin kau pernah dengar kata ini. dan aku lagi yakin kau mampu hadap hidup yang kau harung hari-hari itu. walau rasa macam neraka.

Tuhan tak bagi kita hidup saja-saja. ada sebab. ada hikmah atas setiap sesuatu. 

Tuhan tak bagi kita ujian suka-suka. Dia pandai. Dia bagi setimpal dengan kudrat upaya kita. kau rasa kau dah cukup lemah? dah cukup tak mampu? cuba kau celik mata tengok orang lain. cuba...

nasib kau kau sendiri patut ubah. tiada yang dapat tolong kalau hati kau sendiri lemah. buka mata, buka hati, buka fikiran. kau tak pernah sendiri kawan. kerna kau ada aku. aku ada kau... dan kita ada, Dia. mari? kita raih damai kita bersama.

rapuh. (Part I)

Aku buka tutup mata. Selimut aku tarik rapat-rapat ke dada. Sejuk. Entah mengapa mata kiri belah bawahku asyik berkerdip-kerdip lewat beberapa hari ini. Acapkali sengaja aku singkir jauh-jauh fikiran buruk yang menerjah. 

Aku toleh rakan sebilikku di sebelah. Cemburu aku melihat tidurnya yang begitu nyenyak, aku lantas bangkit mengambil telefon bimbitku lantas ditekan ikon facebook. Lama aku skrol daripada atas ke bawah. Berulang kali. Sehingga..., mataku tertancap pada satu status kawanku yang membuat dadaku berdetak kencang. Mataku serentak jadi hangat. Merah.

"Hakim!"

17 September 2014

perbualan 30 julai. waktu insomnia.

Rover : kau pun kenal aku...aku ni keras hati....hati batu...aku susah nak sayang orang...padahal sudah jelas-jelas orang tu buat benda baik...

Ranger : aku cuba nak mintak kau lapangkan dada untuk terima orang. janganlah hukum orang lain dengan masa lalu kau. tak adil. untuk dia dan diri kau sendiri. maksudnya, kau belum redha dengan apa yang dah jadi dulu. lepaskanlah. maafkan diri kau sendiri. maafkan yang tepek luka kat kau tu.

Rover dongak langit. Rover pejam mata. Rover tarik nafas. dalam jantung Rover, bunyi suara Rover sendiri bergema berlanggar-langgar dalam empat chamber

"tak payah nak suruh orang lain sarung kasut kau.
orang lain tak ada masa nak rasa apa yang kau pernah rasa.
kau buka kasut kau.
buang plaster yang dah berlumut balut luka kau berbelas-belas tahun tu.
biar luka kau cepat kering.
bila dah jadi parut, tak sakit pun."



14 September 2014

i'm walking on broken glass. (part II)



it is cold september.
but not any colder than your heart, you know.


22 August 2014

tamu hati


kau yang memanggilku indah
sayang kau gapai tiada
dipujuk-pujuk resah
mendamba sabda hikmat

Kayangan...
kunanti saat bersatu.


20 August 2014

kunci mulut.



Kosong kota kata.
Bisu.
Lelah dalam nafas sendiri...


19 August 2014

ringgit itu rezeki. tetapi cinta itu juga rezeki.


bukan banyak yang aku kejar. aku cuma mahu cukup.
apapun, kita dapat seberapa dan sesiapa yang selayaknya kita dapat.


18 August 2014

What the hell am I writing? Pfftt.


Dreams can be beautiful. 
Reality is not. 
But I can't stop dreaming,
for that's the only way I found some magical called...,









HOPE.









12 August 2014

i'm walking on broken glass.


i told Mak, "Mak, i want to get married soon. in a discipline way."
have no idea about the word discipline there. but it happened.
then, i found myself in an empty small room.
a lack-of-light-and-sound room.
i looked up.
i looked down.
i saw broken window glass laying on the floor.
they were everywhere.
that was when i realize i was standing on the broken glass.
unfortunately there was no other way to get out of the room.
had to continue walking on the broken glass.
lots of cuts on the sole of my feet.
felt terribly terrible.
wanted to cry but i could not.
it hurts........................


not my feet.
my heart.

10 August 2014

no sane man wouldn't miss everything that make them smile ear to ear.


it's funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back everything is different. ever heard?

08 August 2014

the emptiness.



































what am doing with my life...?
what i've done...?
and what will i do...?

06 August 2014

this feeling.

this feeling......is...

this..this feeling..........






this feeling..................................

















this feeling...


this feeling is................




o' Allah............this feeling is...i don't know...it's terrible..i know i laugh too much lately..and i know this is never a good sign..help me, Allah..




16 July 2014

Sad eyes.

 .
'R' once did told me that i got a pair of sad eyes.
and she use to always ask, 
"are you happy?"
Back then, i just answer with a big smile or laugh.
Truthfully "R".
me myself is confuse. 
do i really happy? 
   p/s: Someone is trying to make herself smile... :)

27 June 2014

Johor : the land for the workaholic teachers.


wonder what four days holidays included the one day given by JDT should be filled.

coffee? 



25 June 2014

Keep read it


This is not my own writing. I share it here just in case you never read it before and trust me, it inspires a lot. And plus, I just loveeeeeeeeee coffee.. *peace* (^^,)Y





The Mayonnaise Jar and Two Cups of Coffee

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee. 

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions--and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else--the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first--the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Source: http://www.facebook.com/Impossible2Possible